02 november 2013.....

yesterday was my beloved bapa birthday.... but i didnt got chance to wrote anything abt yesterday as d whole day i was busy wt all d programme in sch....n yesterday oso the two of my prince n princess goin bck to their daddy's hometown....only d youngest binsius stay bck wt me here....missing them ordy....:'(

today is Saturday..im thinking to continue doin my sch work.... but i guess i need some rest today as i've been so busy and too much hard work since few weeks ordy...i feel tht i pushed too much myself on doing some works that i think i shouldnt do it alone....hrmmmm but its d way to make me feel tired and sleepy or else im goin to stay up late at nite doin nothing bt always think bad....so it is more comfortable the way i am now...no time to think others stuff that not worth at all...even i feel suffered the way it is but thank God....i know God always b with me...i feel more closer wt God now..."less talk, write more..." it is better than talking nonsense.....coz i've experienced it b4 when i talked more,some ppl will misunderstand n judged me....so its better write more...no one cn complain but only me myself n i will understand what i really feel inside....thats y i decided to start my blog again after i abandoned it for a loooonnnggggg time .....:-)

so ....hv a nice day today fellas! release ur stress by enjoying listen to d music... its really heal ur soul!!! like i do .......

#iwant2baloneratherthanbewithsomebodymakemeheadacheandlostpeace!!!!#

30th of october....

Nothing much i feel wanna write now it just i feel grateful n thank God....my work almost finish and i can concentrate wt my assignment n final exam....

I just wanna share to all bloggers out there...there is time when we feel like we ve been rejected by some friends and the friends of us are d most closest with u...u will feel like d whole world r abandoned u right? And everytime u thinks of them u will feel dt u r alone in this world u lost ur most trusted n best friend...but trust me peeps, u r not alone in this world...u can live in this world even u hv to b alone thats d way how u keep alive...i myself experienced everything abt it.... i lost my bestfriend n i feel like i hv nothing to trust anymore bcoz we fight only abt a small matter bt it seems like its abt dead or alive... from tht moment i learn to not put all my trust or hope to a person called 'bff' coz its hurt my heart n feeling so muchh loosing someone u care ,a friend tht shared laugh n sadness wt u even the bff r not ur childhood fren bt we know d time that u both share is a golden memories ever....

But wat ever it is...its all ordy past..n gone wt d wind...lets time heals everything...n God knows d best way for everyone...so let God do His work n we as a human being...to make us keep life goes on...it is important thing to do that is Forgiving n Forgeting....no matter who s wrong or right, we must forgive them n start our new life by forgetting d past....so today i forgive my bff n leave behind everything that is not worth to remember at all.....God bless everyone in this world...

Tuesday...29th of october 2013....

It is 5.01pm.... feel vy tired and my throat soaring few days it makes me gettin weak!!! Gosh....

But i wanna thank God..i manage to finish my work such as marking results analysis n marking d exam papers....

sunday of 27th october 2013....

hi people!!! i sddnly feel like to write something on this beautiful morning sunday so i stop by here n start my writing.....:-)

another day, it feel like its ok to b fine...even d real is im dying inside...there is saying said " a fake smile can hide millions of tears" so im good at hiding my real feeling... thank God for it...at least i can see people around me feel happy with their life, and i always pray 4 it...so people! think happy be happy kio!!! even sometime i feel wanna shout out what i feel inside but God always b with me...HE gives me strenght to overcome any difficult or circumstance that come into this life....even i know i dont deserve d love of God bcoz ive done too mny mistakes but i cn feel HE nvr leave me specially the hard times....thank u Lord ...

we gonna go to church later, hopefully everything going smooth n fine in God ways...pray to everybody hope u guys have a blessed sunday today....amen! i know its wrong n not good to hold d saying but really it can save n b peace to everyone in this world... so people just remember " a fake smile can hide many tears" save d world people n live peacefully wt others.... 

today is 26.10.2013

its almost school holiday .....i guess so many people are ready for their own plan during d holidays especially those have a kids sure will b so excited ....

but as for me...as usual stay at home..waiting anything doesnt sure at all..more over still preparing 4 last exam for this semester...yeah stressfull holiday fuhhhh....

but im still wanna thank God for everything..coz  im not gonna breathing at this moment if not God will... thank u God..God had prepared unbelievable plan in my life....so that i always gettin stronger to face even d tough'est life ...i know u guys r d same... so lets b stronger n more focus in our life ,"high 5" (^_^)

i dont think much these few days...coz ive been so bz at work so it make me feel vy tired n actually its good for me...:-)

but i miss writing... so i jz drop by here to write some thought of mine...

who ever u r....Think Happy Be happy God bless everyone....:-)

21.10.2013...

its such a rememberance day...rest in peace elly!!! u cn do it through God.....God will heals everything in time passing by....for those who having a tough time like me these moment....remember, our life is not depends on how we go through every single day...but how we put our troubles n weaknesses to God because HE is the one who make us alive n keep breathing so whatever circumstance it might be...Let Put it in God hands n He knows what is d best for us....we just hv to keep praying n praying...trust me, when we praying sincerely we will feel ease n peace ....so lets keep praying for other n ourself!!!! amen...

emptynesss doesnt mean anything...

today i feel a lil bit stronger than d days b4 this.....but still so empty n guilty... am keep thinking is this was my fault?...whatever it is i still feel its all my fault... so blame on me my frens....:'(

Bengkel Koir 2013....

7&8 of October was d day of Choir Course ... n today is d last day but d finale is tonite will b goin to d choir concert of sabah.... its fun n many things can learn... thank u for Prof Siti Chairani n Drs Yosoff both them from Indonesia...they've teach us do mny things abt choir n singing in French language!! thou its feel tired but its fun & satisfied hv more inputs abt teaching choir in sch.....

6th of October ....

sunday....its already 9.54pm..and i havent packed anything for tmrw....still feel tired n empty... can i not go for d course?? at noon jz finish our camping day of sch at Damai Eco Ranch..snce friday till today i dont hv enough rest n sleep... some more i need to rushing went 2 my 'kuliah' ysterday in KK so i've used too many energy these few days.... how i wish d long holiday could come faster..... n how i wish when i wake up tmrw i forgot everything that make me sad but only d cheerful things left....hrmmmmmm....plsss time , swept away all that not bring us any good things....

2nd day of October 2013......

today as usual...doing my routine...wt d kiddos n my daily work....its xtly a happy n nice life....nothing to worry ....but this heart still feel empty n hurt.......:'( 

2013..........

alohaaaaa fella's.................it's 2013!! and today is 28.09.2013(saturday)...been really really abndone my blog ever since............hrmmm how come i missed so much to blog aa..... i really need to do something on my writing and also my blog...i miss this blog already................

                Since this was my 'first' posted after many years on my own blog so i decided to upload my latest slideshow together with my favourites songs..hope u guys enjoy it n i do it for fun actually, no other intention...people said the more you getting busy the more you ignored all unhappy things that happen in your life.....

                So fella's, i've made my blog as a public view..feel free to add me on my blog and welcome to Snowy Queen Blog dear bloggers!!!

IM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aloha bloggers!!!!!!!!!wahhh missed a lot lot of thngs here.....i leave my blog for more than 1year.....huishhhh...missing so much on writing just like my diary....how are u all my dear friends...hope all d best in ur life o.k.........
               well, FYI,i'll be start writing n more focus on my blog from this moment....as i found that FB is no longer my 'friend' to easy communicate with my friends n relative...i found that FB is the way people to put u in a nonsence gossip at ur workplace and people take advantage from FB to hurt people feelings...so i want 2 say sorry to all if i didnt add anyone that i feel no rights to read my blog...coz personal life is my own n i'll not mix it with my works okay...sorry to my celiq (after this, ada lg yg merepot d tmpt keja..ndataula apa mo bt lg dgn mulut org nie....)

update......

aloha bloggers......its been a long time didnt update my blog recently.....................maybe after my 3rd pregnancy, i havent update it at all.....missing to blogging.....:(((

For the few past months..there's many things happen around me and i didn't hv much time to update here...all i can do is only update my status thru Facebook which is more convienence to do so..well, peeps...i'll keep update my blog start from now on coz im missing to do so.....

have a nice day all...........God bless

On The Rocks - Bad Romance - 4/23/10

My Favourite Youtube ever....u Go guys!!!

My Private Photos

My Private Photos

these are some photos i grab from my FS acc...all are the old pictures taken 2yrs ago..and i missed all the moment with all d persons in these pics.....just want to be shared on my blog...hv a nice day peeps.........(^_^)

'Missing' mode...

im really in a mood of writing right now...but seems nothing i want to write at this moment..hurmmm...what to shared with d bloggers?...ahaa...there's still two more weeks until Baby Earl full moon on 24th this April...yeah, but i still feel very weak and don't know what to do...yet so many things haven't done, im kinda lazy even spending all the time at home, surfing internet and chat wt my friends through MSN and YM..actually deep inside my heart, i really missed my home....:'((( i missed mama,bapa n ama ..they only left three at home and i should grab this chance to spent more time with them during my maternity leave...but i just couldn't do so, as i still need to look after my two kids even the 3rd one i can bring along go bck home...Hmm...Elly, be strong!! not long after this ,i can go out and meet my parents...God bless u all there..:'((

Okay......change another topic, is....during this maternity leave, i need to recover the whole body, inside n outside...really really a hard time..uhuhuhuh, thats mean "diet" time will be very strict after this..or i will not fit with all my jeans and shirt anymore..ahahah lol. but anyhow, the important thing is i'll make sure inside my body got full recovery before focus with the outside..that is the Must thing to do...elly, aza aza fighthing!!

OMG...i have a bad dreams early this morning......

speechless...i don't know where to start but this is never exist before.....should i believe on it or just ignored it?
but what can i say here is, im not ready to share anything about it right now..or may be just let it gone and be forgotten....

Tired n Sleepy but can't even take a nap.....

Today is already 8th of April, its Thursday...oh my, time really goes fast until i don't even noticed that we are on April month...but i do noticed one thing is Baby Earl is 15days already (^_^) and i started feel a bit bored and annoying sometimes because thought its only 15days stay at home, not going anywhere even go to kicthen but its seems enough to make me feel bored and annoying...all i do for the whole day is feeding,bathing,talking to Baby Earl alone...besides all i do only surfing around until midnight....
At days, baby sleep so well and should be my chance to take a nap or sleeping while he's sleeping too, but i don't know why my eyes can't close even just for 5minutes..maybe i think too much of something else because my body telling me that im too tired but my mind and my eyes can't rest for me...these kind of habit doesnt exists during my two previous son and daughter,so i would say that maybe it is because im getting older?? ahaha...lol. To be honest, yess..i should and i have to force myself to have an enough rest after this because i don't want to fall sick suddenly while my 3 small kids needs me all the time...all i want is to make sure my 3 children get their enough food,rest and education at home..since i left my two kids because of giving birth to their little brother so i feel sorry to them because they are still small but Mommy sometimes not with them while they need me. Oppss, Baby Earl seems calling to be feed so i better to off here and will come back soon for another post...

Baby Earl at 14days old...

Thank God..tomorrow is baby Earl 14days old,xtually i can't wait to see him at 1month old..^_^

same with my others child, this newborn baby have d same character with his bro n sister...yeah,sleep well at day and wake up in the middle of night, which make me can't fall asleep till 5am.. so during my maternity leave, friends will know why am i online from midnight till morning..^_^ yeah,getting my panda eyes late at night..but at days i'll follow baby to sleep together so that im not that tired at night..its not a good habit i know, but due 2 my previous experience,i'll let them.play n.awake at morning then gettin early sleep late after noon........

my 3rd child arrived!!!

Finally, everything's done...on 24th mac of 2010,5.48pm at Damai Specialist Centre,my Baby boy was born smooth n safe....(yeah,xtly not that smooth coz my contraction is Pheww....ww those who ever is in my condition bfore,they know how its going to be..) but i really Thank God for His mercy n guideness,my due date should be on 31st of Mac but doctor said when my 2nd last review(its on 24th d day bb born) the baby is ready when its already 4cm...Hah??!! im too suprised coz never noe that fast even this is my 3rd time to delivered a baby..so doctor suggested to admit me n a.s.a.p will delivered now or tonight!! wow, im speechless bt i do trust my doctor since he is an experience doctor , so i go out n tell my husband what had doctor said and he...speechless too coz he todd our baby not arrived this soon..^_^

after admit to maternity ward, doc start to do his job..as his says, i'll delivered today or tonight,it was his gurantee,im happy to hear that i'll be delivered my baby NOW but a bit panic and worried as this was my 1st to delivered such a place, i mean s my two child was born in a govt hosp where i m not really satisfied coz of the service..but here in DSC,they serve u 100% totally good and 'man yi' ...ehe (^_^).back to my 'delivering process'..i thank God once again, as all the process goin fine even im too stuborn during the process..but as doc said im a bit fast to gv birth as 4pm i was admit to ward then 5.48pm baby is arrived..besides, i wanna thank u for my doctor who always check 100% routine 4 me whenever i reach DSC and all the kind n loving nurse there..once again, thank u to Dr. Joseph Lau.ur help bring my baby come back home safe n sound and also the nurses....(^_^)